poor me

Jai ho! >< I love that songgie!
Oh crud. I just realized. I have to start school in two weeks. I am going to die! (said in a Buffy-ish voice) (And yes, I only know what Buffy's voice sounds like because I was watching Buffy Summers Meets Edward Cullen on youtube. Pretty funny! Poor Edward. It's not easy being a 150 year old teenager.
Oh wellllll.... I'm just tryingto distract myself from the fact that now I have to go to school. I think I really am going to die. Or at least my heart will.... Somehow I have the feeling that as soon as I walk in the doors, I'll change in a completely weird way. Who knows what I will become, be it a prep, an emo, a jock, or a nerd, or maybe even The School Bitch, but whatever it is, that is what I will become. I know it full well. I willna even be able to help it. Twill happen to me against my will.
So now I have to take care of everything I need to do. For all general purposes, I'm about to die. I'm not even being dramatic, because from now on, I'm never going to be happy again. I know it. Because... for the rest of my mind, I'm going to be overworked, and underprivileged. I'm never going to meet any guys, I won't find any friends, I'll have to watch my weight and not eat any food at all. I'm going to turn into a commercial plastic sell out. I won't care about important things. Everybody's Fool will turn into my theme song, only I'm the one who has everyone fooled.It's all ending now... So from now on, I'm dead to the world. This isn't like the retreat or orchestra, where it can just end and be all done for the year. This is forever. (Ok, four years, but that's pretty much forever) What a great time for Mark to bail on me. Wish I could complain to him and be a bitch. Maybe that's why he ditched... or I could use Jack. Or how bout C.C and Roman! Aaahhhh! they'd be perfect!
I think I should get counselling. I should call.
I just want someone to spill to... and as long as I'm paying them to do it, they might as well give me advice too! Although, in all fairness, their advice would probably suck. They'd be an adult, after all, so they'd be terminally out of it. Not only are adults selfish and mean, they are actually really stupid as well. No, I don't mean stupid stupid, I just mean stupid stupid. If you know what I mean. Right? ANd they have no morals. And also... let's see... everything, or at least most things are their fault. When you see all these young criminals, it's because of their parents and everything. And also adults are evil. they have only everyone's worst interests at heart.
Oh crap, they're home.
Bye.
xoxo~♥~