I think I have successfully cured Kitty of her anorexia. Not to say it won't start up again, because it might, but for the time being, I have cured it. She's gotten much fatter. Not fat, per se, but more like healthy looking. And it's good. (Not bad. Shut up, you dick biscuit, you try being anorexic and see how you easy it is being "feminine".)
It's because I cook so much. Unfortunately, it's made me fat. How kind of me, how self sacrificing.... I'm throwing away my own beauty for someone else's.... I suppose I could just not eat what I cook, but please, what do I look like, a preppy barbie doll?
I'm also very proud of myself. I treated everyone to the rough side of my tongue. Screw treated, I'm still treating them!
And it's all Mark's fault.
Ok, not all his fault, but he did contribute quite a bit, the dear little boy.
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Jasmine found their crushes using Crush-Bot.
Crush-Bot predicted that these people had a crush on Jasmine:
#1. Mark - CrushBot's Best Prediction
#2. Jack - Highly likely to have a crush on you
#3. Zac - Good chance to have a crush on you
Yesterday at 7:53pm · Comment · Like
Mark what!!!!!!!
Yesterday at 8:02pm · Delete
Kitty oh.... ew.
Yesterday at 8:08pm · Delete
Mark i so do not have a cruch on your sis
Yesterday at 8:09pm · Delete
Kitty a cruch???
but its the zac part thats gross
Yesterday at 8:10pm · Delete
Mark lol thats what really really funnny\
Yesterday at 8:14pm · Delete
Kitty no its not funny!... more sort of twisted if you ask me
Yesterday at 8:18pm · Delete
Mark lol i know that was so funny about it XD
Yesterday at 8:19pm · Delete
Kitty ok... no offense, but thats kind of weird.
Yesterday at 8:21pm · Delete
Jack how the hell does that work?
Yesterday at 8:28pm · Delete
Mark lol thats what i said
Yesterday at 8:31pm · Delete
Jack isnt the last guy uhh.. related to you? lmao
Yesterday at 8:31pm · Delete
Mark it'her bro is the last 1
Yesterday at 8:32pm · Delete
Jack i really am laughin my ass off
Yesterday at 8:33pm · Delete
Jack im #2 lol
Yesterday at 8:33pm · Delete
Mark lol i was 2 when i saw who it said
Yesterday at 8:34pm · Delete
Jack hey, i used the crushbot and it said that jasmine was #1
Yesterday at 8:36pm · Delete
Jack i doubt it though lol
Yesterday at 8:36pm · Delete
Mark lol werid ya i'm thinking the same
Yesterday at 8:39pm · Delete
Justin lol....this crush-bot is G.E.N.I.U.S.
Yesterday at 11:44pm · Delete
Justin nvm......its retarded.... :/
Yesterday at 11:46pm · Delete
Mark lol
5 hours ago · Delete
So you see. He doesn't like me. And he thinks that... well, Iunno. I'm still hung up over the fact that he doesn't like me.
OK FINE I LOVE HIM WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO ABOUT IT YOU FRIGGIN ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Seriously.
Making that confession was sooooooooo embarassing. I only made it cause I was all steamed up and I STILL AM!!!!! SCREW YOU, MARK YOU JERK!!!! JERK! JERK! JERK JERK JERK JERK JERK JERK DICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hmmmph.
And I SO don't like Jack.
Dare I say I dislike him.
Dare I say I hate him.
No, I don't dare.
I don't hate anyone.
Although Mark's creepy friend comes pretty close.
MALDITAS DROGAS!!!!! WHAT THE EFF IS WRONG WITH ME I ONLY ATTRACT PERVS!!!!! AAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!! >< >< >< BOO!
Anyway.
What was I saying?
OH YEAH! BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!
And now to top it off, we have a friggin Misery Ensemble rehearsal at the Academy tonight! Iced crud crap! I am SO not going! Wait! If I alone stay home, I can do whatever I friggin want to! yeaaaaa dawggg thats fuckin hella greatt. get me some scene points cuntt! >:(
And I think I'll change my username to xXxUnending_Misery_And_PainxXx or maybe xxTHExTEARSxIxCRYxx or maybe even seexxmyxxscarsxx. Then TiTi, who is definitely scene, will read this and weep tears of pure and abject joy. "Another one come to us!" she will cry. "My love runs deep! I am weeping tears of pure and abject joy!" Then... well, of course I'll have to get a boyfriend from somewhere so that I can have an excuse not to go out with her. And he must be hot.
Why, oh why did I have to fall for stupid, ugly, cocky, annoying, know-it-all, wiseass, insulting Mark?! He hates me! This I know! And he never was jealous.
So, if we're just friends again, with no possibility of anything else, why am I so pissed off? That was what I wanted, wasn't it?
Although he's still not talking to me. Maybe I should get Jade to intervene, although I'm quite worried about what she might say. (And Kitty too.)
Oh well. Why the eff am I going on about this. I shalt keep mine pain hidden inside mine heart until it comes time to open up. Which will be saturday, because I can't wait to spill to Jade and Crystal when we go to the hospital!
And now...
A sample of my wittilicious tongue.
*sticks out tonuge*
Sorry, I can't remember anything particularly wittilicious that I've said recently. I did say it, however. I just merely forget.
Also, today, someone gave us a whole bunch of patio furniture. I'm not quite clear as to why they did this, but I gather it was because I gave them a cake a while ago. My my. They still remember?
I'm touched.
And now I think I'm going to go be touched somewhere else, because I'm very bored and I don't want to stay on the computer for five hours. Ja ne!
xoxoxo~♥~
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Sousei No Aquarion is such a cute song! ♥
La. I'm waiting for someone to pick me up to go to the CKC-Muzak field trippy. Ugh. I SO don't want to go! Bleh! But apparently, the girl who's about my age and who wears her hair in ponytails all the time now too, asked if I was going, and my kind mom told her yes. Actually, it's probably that her mom, who sometimes sells me Avon, wants to make another sale. But.... who cares. I'm flattered. And, yes, I'm rather simple. Bleh.
Oh my. SOmeone's trying to get into the house. Who can it be? I hope it's mom. Cause if it's the lady who was supposed to pick me up, that would be rather scary. I wonder... Now thay're not trying to get in any-
La. I'm waiting for someone to pick me up to go to the CKC-Muzak field trippy. Ugh. I SO don't want to go! Bleh! But apparently, the girl who's about my age and who wears her hair in ponytails all the time now too, asked if I was going, and my kind mom told her yes. Actually, it's probably that her mom, who sometimes sells me Avon, wants to make another sale. But.... who cares. I'm flattered. And, yes, I'm rather simple. Bleh.
Oh my. SOmeone's trying to get into the house. Who can it be? I hope it's mom. Cause if it's the lady who was supposed to pick me up, that would be rather scary. I wonder... Now thay're not trying to get in any-
Saturday, July 25, 2009
bleh.
Ok, ok, I get it I get it, I know I'm updating waaaaaay too much, but what am I supposed to do when I'm so frickin bored? Bit my nails? Count crows? Cast Crowns? Bwahaha. I crack me up.
Anyway...
"someone" wants the computer. byeas!
Anyway...
"someone" wants the computer. byeas!
Friday, July 24, 2009
poor me
Jai ho! >< I love that songgie!
Oh crud. I just realized. I have to start school in two weeks. I am going to die! (said in a Buffy-ish voice) (And yes, I only know what Buffy's voice sounds like because I was watching Buffy Summers Meets Edward Cullen on youtube. Pretty funny! Poor Edward. It's not easy being a 150 year old teenager.
Oh wellllll.... I'm just tryingto distract myself from the fact that now I have to go to school. I think I really am going to die. Or at least my heart will.... Somehow I have the feeling that as soon as I walk in the doors, I'll change in a completely weird way. Who knows what I will become, be it a prep, an emo, a jock, or a nerd, or maybe even The School Bitch, but whatever it is, that is what I will become. I know it full well. I willna even be able to help it. Twill happen to me against my will.
So now I have to take care of everything I need to do. For all general purposes, I'm about to die. I'm not even being dramatic, because from now on, I'm never going to be happy again. I know it. Because... for the rest of my mind, I'm going to be overworked, and underprivileged. I'm never going to meet any guys, I won't find any friends, I'll have to watch my weight and not eat any food at all. I'm going to turn into a commercial plastic sell out. I won't care about important things. Everybody's Fool will turn into my theme song, only I'm the one who has everyone fooled.It's all ending now... So from now on, I'm dead to the world. This isn't like the retreat or orchestra, where it can just end and be all done for the year. This is forever. (Ok, four years, but that's pretty much forever) What a great time for Mark to bail on me. Wish I could complain to him and be a bitch. Maybe that's why he ditched... or I could use Jack. Or how bout C.C and Roman! Aaahhhh! they'd be perfect!
I think I should get counselling. I should call.
I just want someone to spill to... and as long as I'm paying them to do it, they might as well give me advice too! Although, in all fairness, their advice would probably suck. They'd be an adult, after all, so they'd be terminally out of it. Not only are adults selfish and mean, they are actually really stupid as well. No, I don't mean stupid stupid, I just mean stupid stupid. If you know what I mean. Right? ANd they have no morals. And also... let's see... everything, or at least most things are their fault. When you see all these young criminals, it's because of their parents and everything. And also adults are evil. they have only everyone's worst interests at heart.
Oh crap, they're home.
Bye.
xoxo~♥~
Oh crud. I just realized. I have to start school in two weeks. I am going to die! (said in a Buffy-ish voice) (And yes, I only know what Buffy's voice sounds like because I was watching Buffy Summers Meets Edward Cullen on youtube. Pretty funny! Poor Edward. It's not easy being a 150 year old teenager.
Oh wellllll.... I'm just tryingto distract myself from the fact that now I have to go to school. I think I really am going to die. Or at least my heart will.... Somehow I have the feeling that as soon as I walk in the doors, I'll change in a completely weird way. Who knows what I will become, be it a prep, an emo, a jock, or a nerd, or maybe even The School Bitch, but whatever it is, that is what I will become. I know it full well. I willna even be able to help it. Twill happen to me against my will.
So now I have to take care of everything I need to do. For all general purposes, I'm about to die. I'm not even being dramatic, because from now on, I'm never going to be happy again. I know it. Because... for the rest of my mind, I'm going to be overworked, and underprivileged. I'm never going to meet any guys, I won't find any friends, I'll have to watch my weight and not eat any food at all. I'm going to turn into a commercial plastic sell out. I won't care about important things. Everybody's Fool will turn into my theme song, only I'm the one who has everyone fooled.It's all ending now... So from now on, I'm dead to the world. This isn't like the retreat or orchestra, where it can just end and be all done for the year. This is forever. (Ok, four years, but that's pretty much forever) What a great time for Mark to bail on me. Wish I could complain to him and be a bitch. Maybe that's why he ditched... or I could use Jack. Or how bout C.C and Roman! Aaahhhh! they'd be perfect!
I think I should get counselling. I should call.
I just want someone to spill to... and as long as I'm paying them to do it, they might as well give me advice too! Although, in all fairness, their advice would probably suck. They'd be an adult, after all, so they'd be terminally out of it. Not only are adults selfish and mean, they are actually really stupid as well. No, I don't mean stupid stupid, I just mean stupid stupid. If you know what I mean. Right? ANd they have no morals. And also... let's see... everything, or at least most things are their fault. When you see all these young criminals, it's because of their parents and everything. And also adults are evil. they have only everyone's worst interests at heart.
Oh crap, they're home.
Bye.
xoxo~♥~
Thursday, July 23, 2009
yayyyy! 100th post! ♫ ♥★
The Tragic Elegy
Today I'm going to write about
Jason's little son
He was special, so I'm picking
Him to be the one
It's very rare that little kids
Ever have these traits
But, as mentioned, he was good
He was really great
He was smart and he was strong
He was very brave
But unfortunately
His life he couldn't save
He looked up to his angry mom
He saw death in her eyes
So he tried to get away
Her betrayal was no surprise
Although she did this awful deed
Her mind she elevated
Sent her children both away
And the task she relegated
And so I end my tragic tale
Of his father's joy and pride
He could have been so much much more
But alas, he died
xoxo~♥~
Today I'm going to write about
Jason's little son
He was special, so I'm picking
Him to be the one
It's very rare that little kids
Ever have these traits
But, as mentioned, he was good
He was really great
He was smart and he was strong
He was very brave
But unfortunately
His life he couldn't save
He looked up to his angry mom
He saw death in her eyes
So he tried to get away
Her betrayal was no surprise
Although she did this awful deed
Her mind she elevated
Sent her children both away
And the task she relegated
And so I end my tragic tale
Of his father's joy and pride
He could have been so much much more
But alas, he died
xoxo~♥~
Jasmine's Little List Of Attributes For The Perfect Man
❤ Hot
❤ Tall (taller than me at least)
❤ Wisecracker
❤ Not a dumbass (yet he should have just a bit of stupidity about him...)
❤ Popular ★ (yet not a ladies' man)
❤ Somewhat athletic
❤ Somewhat musical
❤ SDA
❤ Nice (he shouldn't be all mushy, just not a total meanie either)
❤ Not be afraid to show his soft side (Not that he ever should! Not a girly man!)
❤ Loyal to his homies (and of course me!)
❤ Not a horrible dresser
❤ Likes me the way I are
❤ Confident (not cocky though...)
❤ Not completely unromantic (but not the sort of guy who would keep you up all night caterwauling at your window)
❤ Doesn't give me a bad feeling (He doesn't make me want to get away!)
❤ Not interested in doing it
❤ Actually reads stuff (he doesn't have to pore over heavy tomes of War And Peace or The Day Mikhail Piolwska Tragically Died, but he should at least know the alphabet!)
❤ Not selfish
❤ Kind of like me
❤ Kind of unlike me
❤ Likes music (very important!)
❤ Doesn't cuss me out
❤ Likes to talk a lot
❤ Doesn't text or call every five minutes (read: not possessive)
❤ A badass! (but he should be totally nice in his heart! *sigh*)
❤ Doesn't have horrible skin
❤ Smart
❤ Independent
❤ Not interested in mean whacked out conspiracy theories (but he should think all the rest are funny)
❤ Interesting
❤ Someone I can spill my guts to (i.e a true friend. Swoon!)
❤ Not fat
❤ Polite/respectful (but I ain't takin' no dick on a stick either! Ya hear?)
❤ Doesn't have a name like Ethelbert or Lars
❤ Doesn't have glasses
❤ Mixed race (like meeeeeee!)
❤ Likes animals
KYAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
❤ Tall (taller than me at least)
❤ Wisecracker
❤ Not a dumbass (yet he should have just a bit of stupidity about him...)
❤ Popular ★ (yet not a ladies' man)
❤ Somewhat athletic
❤ Somewhat musical
❤ SDA
❤ Nice (he shouldn't be all mushy, just not a total meanie either)
❤ Not be afraid to show his soft side (Not that he ever should! Not a girly man!)
❤ Loyal to his homies (and of course me!)
❤ Not a horrible dresser
❤ Likes me the way I are
❤ Confident (not cocky though...)
❤ Not completely unromantic (but not the sort of guy who would keep you up all night caterwauling at your window)
❤ Doesn't give me a bad feeling (He doesn't make me want to get away!)
❤ Not interested in doing it
❤ Actually reads stuff (he doesn't have to pore over heavy tomes of War And Peace or The Day Mikhail Piolwska Tragically Died, but he should at least know the alphabet!)
❤ Not selfish
❤ Kind of like me
❤ Kind of unlike me
❤ Likes music (very important!)
❤ Doesn't cuss me out
❤ Likes to talk a lot
❤ Doesn't text or call every five minutes (read: not possessive)
❤ A badass! (but he should be totally nice in his heart! *sigh*)
❤ Doesn't have horrible skin
❤ Smart
❤ Independent
❤ Not interested in mean whacked out conspiracy theories (but he should think all the rest are funny)
❤ Interesting
❤ Someone I can spill my guts to (i.e a true friend. Swoon!)
❤ Not fat
❤ Polite/respectful (but I ain't takin' no dick on a stick either! Ya hear?)
❤ Doesn't have a name like Ethelbert or Lars
❤ Doesn't have glasses
❤ Mixed race (like meeeeeee!)
❤ Likes animals
KYAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
the fiddler fiddles on
Ooooooohhhhh I had sooooo much fun on Tuesday!!!! ><
Crystal, me, and Crystal's mom all went to Hollywood to see Topol's last performance. (Fiddler On The Roof) It was really really good! Except I cried so much that everyone in my vicinity started inching away. But still! You would have cried too! It was the saddest thing!
We also got boba and fried dim sum and popcorn chicken on the way there to eat in the car. It was yummmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyy! ♥ I love boba! I got strawberry. Oh yeah, we got strawberry pocky too! The only thing making it better would be a hot guy feeding it to us. But oh well, you can't have everything...
We took sooooo many silly pictures in the car! Totally fun! We intend to put them up on Facebook, along with some of the ones we took of random people. (muahahahaha!)
When we were buying Snickers, the guy winked at us, and another guy informed me I had the most beautiful smile, (he was really old though) and yet another guy called Crystal a "cute little girl". And, of course, lots of people kept staring at us and smiling and crud. You know, of course, we're the two most beautiful women in the world! (inside joke)
We took to calling every cute boy we saw a "chair" for privacy. Then, when we got inside the theater, and there were nothing but chairs for miles around, we started calling them "gold plated ceiling tiles". Soooo funny!
One lady asked Crystal if she were a model, and asked me if I was a singer or an actress. Then, when I said no, she said "Oh, but I thought you would have something to do with your voice!" I'm so flattered! My dream will definitely come true now! Of course, then she proceeded to ask the next lady if she knew she looked like Barbara Britton, but what can you expect....
For some reason, during the musical, this old lady sitting next to me deemed it necessary to smack her lips loudly every five seconds or so. I'm not quite sure why she was doing this, and I'm also not quite sure why she had to lean my way while she was doing it, but that is the way of the world... There was also this guy with a really tall head parked directly in front of me. I could hardly see anything in the center of the stage! Why do tall people always have to sit in front of me anyway? Eesh.
But I still had a faaaaaaaabulous time, and I wanna go back to Hollywood soon! ^^
Mark got a girlfriend. I think. Although I am not quite sure. His relationship status still says single, but he seems to be talking an awful lot to her, and he doesn't ignore her even when she's being a bitch. Sooooo.... although he does talk quite a bit to a lot of other girls too.
NOT that this bothers me any at all! Seriously! I just wish he didn't hate me...
Who else do I complain to without making out like a total bitch??? Seriously, a girl needs to complain SOMEtime! And I can't because I'm still trying to be "kind".....
It doesn't hurt my heart though. Really.
Really.
I'm serious.
It doesn't.
No way.
Uh-uh.
After all, I still have darling Jack to keep me company....
Oh! I forgot! I think I'm completely over Roman now! I saw some pics C.C put up of them on a cruise together, and it hardly bothered me at all! I am indeed a strong and brave warrior of the heart.
I need to find a new crush, though... what else are you supposed to think about every time you feel like a guy? (Don't you ever get that? Sometimes you're just hanging around, minding your own business, and suddenly, BAM! You start feeling like the tough old dude down the street! There are few remedies for this. One is to strip down to your bra and panties and do a Pussycat Doll-ish dance around your bedroom. Another is to put on as much makeup as will fit on your face without falling off and then giggling at everything anyone says. The last is to go up to the said tough dude and cuss him out, but I will not reccomend this option. It might have deleterious side effects.)
Soooooooo, who do you suggest? It has to be someone you'd never expect... like, mmmm, maybe Austin, Roman's hot(ish) friend? Or Terrance, his other hot(ish) friend? (Who knew I'd run into two guys named Terrance? It's not exactly the most popular name!) Or even Justin, but I somehow don't think so, as we practically grew up together, and that 'twould be a bit ickypoo. He sure is cute, though. Hey, maybe I can date Tomo-chan! Oooh!
Just kidding.
But still... but still... he does have quite a bit of money....
Or maaaaaaybe, I can date Andrew! If we got married, NiNi, Alicia, and I would be related! That would be fun! We could do each other's nails... go shopping... listen to music... talk about cute boys... wait, I would be married. Would that be a problem? Ehhhhh, no. Whoever I marry better be cool with me flirting with anything that comes across my path bearing an x and y chromosome. Or else... BAM! POW! SMACK! You're on the floor, son! HIYAAAAAAAHHHHHHH POW!
Poor guy. He just got beaten up by his dainty, pink-wearing, purse-bearing wife. Don't you pity him deeply?
Oh my.
Oh well.... I WILL find someone someday! Someone who loves me deeply and who has a big-er, paycheck. Someone who will cheer me up when I'm down, and buy me stuff if that doesn't work. Someone who will love me unconditionally and yet not be a stalker. Someone who is hotter than the summer sun, yet has eyes only for me. (For everyone else, he just looks weird, as he has no eyes.) Someone who listens to music all the time, yet is not obsessed with it. Someone who gets turned on by me, yet doesn't want to do it. (EW!) Someone who is much taller than me (not that that would be hard to find) yet who isn't gay with all the members of his basketball team. Someone who has musical talent, yet isn't a Tomo-chan. Someone who isn't afraid to show off his "sensitive" side, he just never does. (i.e a truly MANLY man!) Someone who is a badass, yet is not a dumbass. (He does need to have an ass I can stare at, though...) Someone who.... KYAAAAAHHHHH I DON'T EVEN KNOW!!!! EEEEEEEEEE!!! ♥ ♡ ♥ ♡ ♥ ♡
SQUEEEEEEEEEAAAAALLLLLLLLLL!! Someday I will find the perfect man!
xoxoxo~♥~
Crystal, me, and Crystal's mom all went to Hollywood to see Topol's last performance. (Fiddler On The Roof) It was really really good! Except I cried so much that everyone in my vicinity started inching away. But still! You would have cried too! It was the saddest thing!
We also got boba and fried dim sum and popcorn chicken on the way there to eat in the car. It was yummmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyy! ♥ I love boba! I got strawberry. Oh yeah, we got strawberry pocky too! The only thing making it better would be a hot guy feeding it to us. But oh well, you can't have everything...
We took sooooo many silly pictures in the car! Totally fun! We intend to put them up on Facebook, along with some of the ones we took of random people. (muahahahaha!)
When we were buying Snickers, the guy winked at us, and another guy informed me I had the most beautiful smile, (he was really old though) and yet another guy called Crystal a "cute little girl". And, of course, lots of people kept staring at us and smiling and crud. You know, of course, we're the two most beautiful women in the world! (inside joke)
We took to calling every cute boy we saw a "chair" for privacy. Then, when we got inside the theater, and there were nothing but chairs for miles around, we started calling them "gold plated ceiling tiles". Soooo funny!
One lady asked Crystal if she were a model, and asked me if I was a singer or an actress. Then, when I said no, she said "Oh, but I thought you would have something to do with your voice!" I'm so flattered! My dream will definitely come true now! Of course, then she proceeded to ask the next lady if she knew she looked like Barbara Britton, but what can you expect....
For some reason, during the musical, this old lady sitting next to me deemed it necessary to smack her lips loudly every five seconds or so. I'm not quite sure why she was doing this, and I'm also not quite sure why she had to lean my way while she was doing it, but that is the way of the world... There was also this guy with a really tall head parked directly in front of me. I could hardly see anything in the center of the stage! Why do tall people always have to sit in front of me anyway? Eesh.
But I still had a faaaaaaaabulous time, and I wanna go back to Hollywood soon! ^^
Mark got a girlfriend. I think. Although I am not quite sure. His relationship status still says single, but he seems to be talking an awful lot to her, and he doesn't ignore her even when she's being a bitch. Sooooo.... although he does talk quite a bit to a lot of other girls too.
NOT that this bothers me any at all! Seriously! I just wish he didn't hate me...
Who else do I complain to without making out like a total bitch??? Seriously, a girl needs to complain SOMEtime! And I can't because I'm still trying to be "kind".....
It doesn't hurt my heart though. Really.
Really.
I'm serious.
It doesn't.
No way.
Uh-uh.
After all, I still have darling Jack to keep me company....
Oh! I forgot! I think I'm completely over Roman now! I saw some pics C.C put up of them on a cruise together, and it hardly bothered me at all! I am indeed a strong and brave warrior of the heart.
I need to find a new crush, though... what else are you supposed to think about every time you feel like a guy? (Don't you ever get that? Sometimes you're just hanging around, minding your own business, and suddenly, BAM! You start feeling like the tough old dude down the street! There are few remedies for this. One is to strip down to your bra and panties and do a Pussycat Doll-ish dance around your bedroom. Another is to put on as much makeup as will fit on your face without falling off and then giggling at everything anyone says. The last is to go up to the said tough dude and cuss him out, but I will not reccomend this option. It might have deleterious side effects.)
Soooooooo, who do you suggest? It has to be someone you'd never expect... like, mmmm, maybe Austin, Roman's hot(ish) friend? Or Terrance, his other hot(ish) friend? (Who knew I'd run into two guys named Terrance? It's not exactly the most popular name!) Or even Justin, but I somehow don't think so, as we practically grew up together, and that 'twould be a bit ickypoo. He sure is cute, though. Hey, maybe I can date Tomo-chan! Oooh!
Just kidding.
But still... but still... he does have quite a bit of money....
Or maaaaaaybe, I can date Andrew! If we got married, NiNi, Alicia, and I would be related! That would be fun! We could do each other's nails... go shopping... listen to music... talk about cute boys... wait, I would be married. Would that be a problem? Ehhhhh, no. Whoever I marry better be cool with me flirting with anything that comes across my path bearing an x and y chromosome. Or else... BAM! POW! SMACK! You're on the floor, son! HIYAAAAAAAHHHHHHH POW!
Poor guy. He just got beaten up by his dainty, pink-wearing, purse-bearing wife. Don't you pity him deeply?
Oh my.
Oh well.... I WILL find someone someday! Someone who loves me deeply and who has a big-er, paycheck. Someone who will cheer me up when I'm down, and buy me stuff if that doesn't work. Someone who will love me unconditionally and yet not be a stalker. Someone who is hotter than the summer sun, yet has eyes only for me. (For everyone else, he just looks weird, as he has no eyes.) Someone who listens to music all the time, yet is not obsessed with it. Someone who gets turned on by me, yet doesn't want to do it. (EW!) Someone who is much taller than me (not that that would be hard to find) yet who isn't gay with all the members of his basketball team. Someone who has musical talent, yet isn't a Tomo-chan. Someone who isn't afraid to show off his "sensitive" side, he just never does. (i.e a truly MANLY man!) Someone who is a badass, yet is not a dumbass. (He does need to have an ass I can stare at, though...) Someone who.... KYAAAAAHHHHH I DON'T EVEN KNOW!!!! EEEEEEEEEE!!! ♥ ♡ ♥ ♡ ♥ ♡
SQUEEEEEEEEEAAAAALLLLLLLLLL!! Someday I will find the perfect man!
xoxoxo~♥~
Monday, July 20, 2009
it was a very odd dream too.
Ughhhhhhhhhh..... my fifth consecutive dream about Mark.
I really gotta get a new best guy friend.
Or something....
But anyway. Why does he hate me so effing much? Why? WHHYYYYYYYYYYY??!!!!! URGH! I curse him to trip in front of his crush! Cha! Take that! *waves hands around in a vague attempt to direct bad luck his way*
But anyways.... I guess I'm never prolly g'nuh talk to him anymore... WHICH IS JACK'S FAULT!!!! AAAARRRGHHH! EFF YOU, JACK! It's all his fault. Everything is.
Actually, no I'm wrong. Everything is my fault. If I hadn't been so durned stupid as to talk to Jack in the first place, then Mark wouldn't be mad at me now. SO THERE!
But... I'm not as stupid as to bust my butt trying to apologize to either of them (not that Jack even wants an apology) because I'm so forgiving or anything. (Crud, that's really not the right word, but I can't think of the right one!) Weak, maybe. Or accepting. Or allowing? Nooooooooo, none of those! Crud! ><
Woah, Lacrymosa is really a good song!
Anyway. What was I saying? Oh yeah. I was complaining about Mr. Jack-Off and his influence on Mark. Did I say in my last post that he was sort of distant? Well, that was the understatement of the century. Now, not only is he somewhat distant, he's somewhat treating me as if I don't exist at all. I walk into sabbath school, see him, wave and smile. He sees me, of course, but he just stares, then looks away and starts talking quite obviously to the girl next to him, who I just happen to know. (She's really nice. Pretty, too. And blond. And much taller than me. As are most of the girls he now is ignoring me in favor of, except not all of them are blond.) Well, really! I went off and sat down. Then, Jade appeared and got me and Kitty to sit over where she was, which just happened to be next to Mark and his buddies. Then, afterwards, when I didn't make any contact with him at all, she got this knowing look on her face and asked, loud enough for people clear out in Rome to hear, "WHAT HAPPENED, JAS? WHAT DID YOU DO? DID YOU HAVE A FIGHT?" In vain did I try to put her off. She wouldn't be quiet until I told her all about Jack-Off-Jack (as opposed to Jack-Off-Jill) Then, she resumed the knowing look and said, still quite loudly, "HE'S JEALOUS!" "DEFINITELY!" agreed Kitty. Then they nodded together, like a pair of bobbleheads. "W-what are you all'uns talking 'bout?" I gasped, so shocked that I affected a Southren accent. "What she said!" said Kitty. "He's jealous!" reiterated Jade. "No way," I said, still in shock. "That's the way a guy is!" she continued. "He's sulking and trying to rebound by talking to all his female friends because he can't get the girl he wants!" "Which is you," Kitty put in quickly, just to clarify things to the maximum. "I'm sure I don't know what you're talking ab-ouffff!" I cut myself off, as Kitty shoved a lemon and poppy seed muffin into my mouth. "Shut up and listen, baka!" she hissed, sounding so entirely evil that I did. "For some reason or another, that numbskull likes you! So when he thought that you were going out with Him Who's Name Shall Not Be Mentioned (as she has dubbed Jack) he decided that he'd make you jealous, or maybe just forget about you, so now he's flirting with all the girls he knows!" "Exactly!" agreed Jade. "See, she's three years younger than you, and she already knows this stuff?" "Om nom nom," said I, still chewing on my muffin. "You look like a pasty chipmunk," said Kitty. I air-slapped her. "Sisterly love..." giggled Jade. "But anyway," she continued in a business like tone. "What we need to do is hook you two up. Right, Kitty?" Kitty nodded, with the most enthusiasm I'd seen for a week. "You can't do that! Can you?" I asked, finally free of my muffin. "Oh yes, we can!" they chorused, with seriously frightening expressions. "What are you going to do?" I asked. "You'll just have to see..." they giggled. Eventually, they did give me a hint, they said that they'd ask him why he's ignoring me. I asked them not to, but they said they wanted to, and just trust them. Very difficult to do...
Oh well. Why am I babbling like this? He's just a guy. So there.
Oh well.... I guess I probably shouldn't have told them that I feel a little jealous after all. Now both of them are perfectly convinced that we're the best future couple ever. Ugh. Well, it's true! I can't help it! Hmmph! ><
Well... I guess there's nothing I can do.
I JUST WISH I COULD FREAKING STOP DREAMING ABOUT HIM!!!!
xoxoxo~&hearts~
I really gotta get a new best guy friend.
Or something....
But anyway. Why does he hate me so effing much? Why? WHHYYYYYYYYYYY??!!!!! URGH! I curse him to trip in front of his crush! Cha! Take that! *waves hands around in a vague attempt to direct bad luck his way*
But anyways.... I guess I'm never prolly g'nuh talk to him anymore... WHICH IS JACK'S FAULT!!!! AAAARRRGHHH! EFF YOU, JACK! It's all his fault. Everything is.
Actually, no I'm wrong. Everything is my fault. If I hadn't been so durned stupid as to talk to Jack in the first place, then Mark wouldn't be mad at me now. SO THERE!
But... I'm not as stupid as to bust my butt trying to apologize to either of them (not that Jack even wants an apology) because I'm so forgiving or anything. (Crud, that's really not the right word, but I can't think of the right one!) Weak, maybe. Or accepting. Or allowing? Nooooooooo, none of those! Crud! ><
Woah, Lacrymosa is really a good song!
Anyway. What was I saying? Oh yeah. I was complaining about Mr. Jack-Off and his influence on Mark. Did I say in my last post that he was sort of distant? Well, that was the understatement of the century. Now, not only is he somewhat distant, he's somewhat treating me as if I don't exist at all. I walk into sabbath school, see him, wave and smile. He sees me, of course, but he just stares, then looks away and starts talking quite obviously to the girl next to him, who I just happen to know. (She's really nice. Pretty, too. And blond. And much taller than me. As are most of the girls he now is ignoring me in favor of, except not all of them are blond.) Well, really! I went off and sat down. Then, Jade appeared and got me and Kitty to sit over where she was, which just happened to be next to Mark and his buddies. Then, afterwards, when I didn't make any contact with him at all, she got this knowing look on her face and asked, loud enough for people clear out in Rome to hear, "WHAT HAPPENED, JAS? WHAT DID YOU DO? DID YOU HAVE A FIGHT?" In vain did I try to put her off. She wouldn't be quiet until I told her all about Jack-Off-Jack (as opposed to Jack-Off-Jill) Then, she resumed the knowing look and said, still quite loudly, "HE'S JEALOUS!" "DEFINITELY!" agreed Kitty. Then they nodded together, like a pair of bobbleheads. "W-what are you all'uns talking 'bout?" I gasped, so shocked that I affected a Southren accent. "What she said!" said Kitty. "He's jealous!" reiterated Jade. "No way," I said, still in shock. "That's the way a guy is!" she continued. "He's sulking and trying to rebound by talking to all his female friends because he can't get the girl he wants!" "Which is you," Kitty put in quickly, just to clarify things to the maximum. "I'm sure I don't know what you're talking ab-ouffff!" I cut myself off, as Kitty shoved a lemon and poppy seed muffin into my mouth. "Shut up and listen, baka!" she hissed, sounding so entirely evil that I did. "For some reason or another, that numbskull likes you! So when he thought that you were going out with Him Who's Name Shall Not Be Mentioned (as she has dubbed Jack) he decided that he'd make you jealous, or maybe just forget about you, so now he's flirting with all the girls he knows!" "Exactly!" agreed Jade. "See, she's three years younger than you, and she already knows this stuff?" "Om nom nom," said I, still chewing on my muffin. "You look like a pasty chipmunk," said Kitty. I air-slapped her. "Sisterly love..." giggled Jade. "But anyway," she continued in a business like tone. "What we need to do is hook you two up. Right, Kitty?" Kitty nodded, with the most enthusiasm I'd seen for a week. "You can't do that! Can you?" I asked, finally free of my muffin. "Oh yes, we can!" they chorused, with seriously frightening expressions. "What are you going to do?" I asked. "You'll just have to see..." they giggled. Eventually, they did give me a hint, they said that they'd ask him why he's ignoring me. I asked them not to, but they said they wanted to, and just trust them. Very difficult to do...
Oh well. Why am I babbling like this? He's just a guy. So there.
Oh well.... I guess I probably shouldn't have told them that I feel a little jealous after all. Now both of them are perfectly convinced that we're the best future couple ever. Ugh. Well, it's true! I can't help it! Hmmph! ><
Well... I guess there's nothing I can do.
I JUST WISH I COULD FREAKING STOP DREAMING ABOUT HIM!!!!
xoxoxo~&hearts~
Friday, July 17, 2009
an unwanted suitor
Oh my. I seem to be fairly popular with the boys as of late.
Not that this is nessecarily a good thing.
For one thing, both the guys who are salivating after my booty are ugly. And they're really weird. And one is at least sis years my senior. So one can imagine why I'm not exactly overjoyed by this.
To start at the begginning...
So, at chamber camp, I had my homies, of course. There was Emily (Really smart and a few inches taller than me, with curly blond hair besides), Amber (really pretty and nice, with a great wardrobe and to-die-for hair), Terrance (who is soooooo innocent and naive, which is actually really cute), Rob (my childhood friend), and....Jack. He.... was the weird one. The very weird one. The one who was so weird you expected him to grow wings out of his weiner and flap off to Never-Never Land.
At first, I thought he was just a nice, normal, wannabe gangsta, but as time went on, he proved himself to be extremely perverted and odd. He called all the girls, especially me, Sexy, Cutie, Baby, and whatever else sprang to his lecherous mind at the moment. He sometimes walked around with a Smile On His Face And A Hand On His *hup!* And, lemme tell you, it didn't exactly make me want to start a Lovegame with him!
Eventually Rob, who's known me since I was five years old and is obligated by law to tell me this stuff, informed me that Young Master Jack-Off was in like with me. That's right, the most ickypoo person in the whole camp is in like with me. Terrance agreed wholeheartedly (and, if Terrance is agreeing, it must be true. Forgive me for saying this, but he's not the brightest biscuit in the hole....) I didn't believe them of course. My bad.
Jack proceeded to make excuses to hang out with me, the fewer people around, the better. He started doing things like "accidently" knocking into my boobs or butt and then not apologizing, or licking his lips whenever he looked at me. I still didn't think he liked me though, cause Amber is extremely pretty, and Emily is blond. (And they're both very thin and taller than me) Soooooo... I just treated him normally, and then, one fine day, (or night, actually) he confessed. No, I'm serious. He actually did. Over instant message. How dare he! He stole my first confession, who was suppoes to be my prince on a white horse! That jerkwad! ><
Well, it could be worse. He could have stolen my first kiss.
BUT STILLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!
Actually, I saved the conversation! Here it is! *makes stalker face*
Jasmine's Newsfeed:
Jasmine:
ANGELA?!
lol jk
10:56pm
Jack:
who did i list in that names thing
no
10:56pm
Jasmine
umm... mary...
10:56pm
Jack
on get to know me
nope
10:57pm
Jasmine:
hang on a minute
it's amber! lol
10:57pm
Jack:
noo
10:57pm
Jasmine:
and jane, mary, marie, jasmine, demeris, and karen
you flirt! lol
jk
10:58pm
Jack:
yeah which one
10:58pm
Jasmine:
...idk...
10:58pm
Jack:
flirting you say
10:58pm
Jasmine:
?
10:58pm
Jack
remember i only flirt wth people i like
10:58pm
Jasmine:
me?
10:59pm
Jack
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
my heart skipped a beat
10:59pm
Jasmine:
y?
i guessed right>
?
10:59pm
Jack:
uhhh yeah
lol
10:59pm
Jasmine:
oh
it's been great talking 2 u, but i g2g 2 bed
ttyl?
11:00pm
Jack:
hahha
e yah
11:01pm
Jasmine:
cya 2morrow
11:01pm
Jack:
do work son
11:01pm
Jasmine:
do good work son!
mcteabag!
11:01pm
Jack:
how you feelin right now
lololol
11:01pm
Jasmine:
happy ^^
11:01pm
Jack:
how much
11:01pm
Jasmine:
very much
^^
11:01pm
Jack:
why
11:01pm
Jasmine:
cuz
of
you
11:01pm
Jack:
waht
11:01pm
Jasmine:
^^
lol
11:01pm
Jack:
why thank you
what did i say
11:02pm
Jasmine:
lol XD
11:02pm
Jack:
lol
11:02pm
Jasmine:
do work son haha jk
11:02pm
Jack:
cliffhanger
11:02pm
Jasmine:
haha
cya 2morrow
11:02pm
Jack:
well il see yah
11:02pm
Jasmine:
yup
11:02pm
Jack:
stay sexy
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
11:03pm
Jasmine:
lol u too
11:03pm
Jack:
pull the plug
in 5 sec
11:03pm
Jasmine:
DROP IT LIKE IT HOT!
wait, what?
11:03pm
Jack:
do work
11:03pm
Jasmine:
ok lol
11:03pm
Jack:
byee
11:03pm
Jasmine:
cyas
11:03pm
You are not online
Did you see my wonderful flirting? I was feeling bad about shooting him down, (even though I don't think he was serious) because I absolutely don't like him. So I put all that in. Feeling happy and all that bit. Actually, I was so flustered, I couldn't sleep or anything until about 3 AM. Thanks a lot, Jack-Off-Man.
Whateeeeeeever...... Mark got really distant after he saw our purported "relationship" soooo.... I'm a bit worried.... Oh well. Not like I like Mark. It's his own fault if he goes off in a huff. Hmph!
I wonder why, though.... you'd almost think he's jealous! Bwahahahahaha! Poor boy! Laugh loudly with me, children!
Anyways.... I better go do something productive before they come home. Ugh. ><
Oh well...
Oh yeah! I need to start a fight with lovely Miss Bakka! Muwahahaha!
See yas!
xoxoxo~♥~
Not that this is nessecarily a good thing.
For one thing, both the guys who are salivating after my booty are ugly. And they're really weird. And one is at least sis years my senior. So one can imagine why I'm not exactly overjoyed by this.
To start at the begginning...
So, at chamber camp, I had my homies, of course. There was Emily (Really smart and a few inches taller than me, with curly blond hair besides), Amber (really pretty and nice, with a great wardrobe and to-die-for hair), Terrance (who is soooooo innocent and naive, which is actually really cute), Rob (my childhood friend), and....Jack. He.... was the weird one. The very weird one. The one who was so weird you expected him to grow wings out of his weiner and flap off to Never-Never Land.
At first, I thought he was just a nice, normal, wannabe gangsta, but as time went on, he proved himself to be extremely perverted and odd. He called all the girls, especially me, Sexy, Cutie, Baby, and whatever else sprang to his lecherous mind at the moment. He sometimes walked around with a Smile On His Face And A Hand On His *hup!* And, lemme tell you, it didn't exactly make me want to start a Lovegame with him!
Eventually Rob, who's known me since I was five years old and is obligated by law to tell me this stuff, informed me that Young Master Jack-Off was in like with me. That's right, the most ickypoo person in the whole camp is in like with me. Terrance agreed wholeheartedly (and, if Terrance is agreeing, it must be true. Forgive me for saying this, but he's not the brightest biscuit in the hole....) I didn't believe them of course. My bad.
Jack proceeded to make excuses to hang out with me, the fewer people around, the better. He started doing things like "accidently" knocking into my boobs or butt and then not apologizing, or licking his lips whenever he looked at me. I still didn't think he liked me though, cause Amber is extremely pretty, and Emily is blond. (And they're both very thin and taller than me) Soooooo... I just treated him normally, and then, one fine day, (or night, actually) he confessed. No, I'm serious. He actually did. Over instant message. How dare he! He stole my first confession, who was suppoes to be my prince on a white horse! That jerkwad! ><
Well, it could be worse. He could have stolen my first kiss.
BUT STILLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!
Actually, I saved the conversation! Here it is! *makes stalker face*
Jasmine's Newsfeed:
Jasmine:
ANGELA?!
lol jk
10:56pm
Jack:
who did i list in that names thing
no
10:56pm
Jasmine
umm... mary...
10:56pm
Jack
on get to know me
nope
10:57pm
Jasmine:
hang on a minute
it's amber! lol
10:57pm
Jack:
noo
10:57pm
Jasmine:
and jane, mary, marie, jasmine, demeris, and karen
you flirt! lol
jk
10:58pm
Jack:
yeah which one
10:58pm
Jasmine:
...idk...
10:58pm
Jack:
flirting you say
10:58pm
Jasmine:
?
10:58pm
Jack
remember i only flirt wth people i like
10:58pm
Jasmine:
me?
10:59pm
Jack
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
my heart skipped a beat
10:59pm
Jasmine:
y?
i guessed right>
?
10:59pm
Jack:
uhhh yeah
lol
10:59pm
Jasmine:
oh
it's been great talking 2 u, but i g2g 2 bed
ttyl?
11:00pm
Jack:
hahha
e yah
11:01pm
Jasmine:
cya 2morrow
11:01pm
Jack:
do work son
11:01pm
Jasmine:
do good work son!
mcteabag!
11:01pm
Jack:
how you feelin right now
lololol
11:01pm
Jasmine:
happy ^^
11:01pm
Jack:
how much
11:01pm
Jasmine:
very much
^^
11:01pm
Jack:
why
11:01pm
Jasmine:
cuz
of
you
11:01pm
Jack:
waht
11:01pm
Jasmine:
^^
lol
11:01pm
Jack:
why thank you
what did i say
11:02pm
Jasmine:
lol XD
11:02pm
Jack:
lol
11:02pm
Jasmine:
do work son haha jk
11:02pm
Jack:
cliffhanger
11:02pm
Jasmine:
haha
cya 2morrow
11:02pm
Jack:
well il see yah
11:02pm
Jasmine:
yup
11:02pm
Jack:
stay sexy
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
11:03pm
Jasmine:
lol u too
11:03pm
Jack:
pull the plug
in 5 sec
11:03pm
Jasmine:
DROP IT LIKE IT HOT!
wait, what?
11:03pm
Jack:
do work
11:03pm
Jasmine:
ok lol
11:03pm
Jack:
byee
11:03pm
Jasmine:
cyas
11:03pm
You are not online
Did you see my wonderful flirting? I was feeling bad about shooting him down, (even though I don't think he was serious) because I absolutely don't like him. So I put all that in. Feeling happy and all that bit. Actually, I was so flustered, I couldn't sleep or anything until about 3 AM. Thanks a lot, Jack-Off-Man.
Whateeeeeeever...... Mark got really distant after he saw our purported "relationship" soooo.... I'm a bit worried.... Oh well. Not like I like Mark. It's his own fault if he goes off in a huff. Hmph!
I wonder why, though.... you'd almost think he's jealous! Bwahahahahaha! Poor boy! Laugh loudly with me, children!
Anyways.... I better go do something productive before they come home. Ugh. ><
Oh well...
Oh yeah! I need to start a fight with lovely Miss Bakka! Muwahahaha!
See yas!
xoxoxo~♥~
Monday, July 13, 2009
dwama chicky
Crud! they won't let me get on Facebook here! For some reason, they decided that if you're under eighteen, you have to use the children's computers, and of course if you're a child, you can't go to Facebook because it has, gasp, Dating/Social stuff! Aaaaahhh! How terrible! This "Face Book" is a menace upon our innocent children and our not-so-innocent society! The internet must be purged of it immediately!
Hmm..... maybe it's my settings. Maybe I could ask the librarian if I could change them... but wait, I think you're supposed to mostly use these computers for work. They might not like it if I go online and chat with everyone. Oh and btw, I can't chat with Mark now because of stupid Jack! He is always online now and Mark is weird out-ed enough because of the stinking changed relationship status!
Oh yeah. I didn't write about that...
Ok, so at chamber camp, which was reeeeeeeeeeeaally awesome, I met this guy named Jack. (I know, totally awkward name...) He seemed perfectly normal for awhile, until SOMONE let it slip that he LIKES me. As in, likes me. Of course I didn't believe him, because who would like me? And besides one of the girls in our group looked practically like a supermodel, (and she's really nice too) and the other girl is like a genius and has curly blond hair besides. So I just acted normal and didn't reeally notice that he was hanging around me an awful lot. Then, he added me as his fiancee on Facebook (or actually, he said "It's Complicated" first, then he said we were engaged)and I didn't think anything of it. Whatever, right? But then my cousin was like "What the!" so I just posted a status saying "i'm not dating this dude... lol" and everyone believed it except for.... well, everyone. Which is to say NO ONE believed me. Mark was like, "if you're not dating, then why does it say you're going out with him, hmmmm?" and then NiNi said "ooh, looks like SOMEONE'S a little jealous!" then Mark stopped doing anything on Facebook at all. Of course, I don't think he was actually jealous, because that would mean he likes me, and I'm sure he doesn't, but still! So I just acted normal with him, (which means not spamming his wall or anything) even though I felt bad because he had gotten rid of J.R for me (saved mah LIFE yo!) AND found Kitty's ring. But I didn't see why I should feel bad, because that would mean I like him or he likes me, and there's nothing like that between us. So then yesterday at Alex's piano recital, we were just hanging out and talking like normal, but then stupid Jack asked over Facebook to add me as his girlfriend, and I don't want to because Mark might get all distant again, and I am sorry, but I care more about Mark then Jack and it's fine because that would mean Mark likes me and he doesn't but WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!
I have no idea what to do. If Jade were online I could ask her, and she might be but I CAN"T GET ON FACEBOOK!!!! AAAAAAARRRRRRGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
Crud, my session ends in ten minutes. I better go. And then I'll ask if I can change my settings so I can go on Facebook. Yuppp! Byeas!
xoxoxo<3xoxoxo
Hmm..... maybe it's my settings. Maybe I could ask the librarian if I could change them... but wait, I think you're supposed to mostly use these computers for work. They might not like it if I go online and chat with everyone. Oh and btw, I can't chat with Mark now because of stupid Jack! He is always online now and Mark is weird out-ed enough because of the stinking changed relationship status!
Oh yeah. I didn't write about that...
Ok, so at chamber camp, which was reeeeeeeeeeeaally awesome, I met this guy named Jack. (I know, totally awkward name...) He seemed perfectly normal for awhile, until SOMONE let it slip that he LIKES me. As in, likes me. Of course I didn't believe him, because who would like me? And besides one of the girls in our group looked practically like a supermodel, (and she's really nice too) and the other girl is like a genius and has curly blond hair besides. So I just acted normal and didn't reeally notice that he was hanging around me an awful lot. Then, he added me as his fiancee on Facebook (or actually, he said "It's Complicated" first, then he said we were engaged)and I didn't think anything of it. Whatever, right? But then my cousin was like "What the!" so I just posted a status saying "i'm not dating this dude... lol" and everyone believed it except for.... well, everyone. Which is to say NO ONE believed me. Mark was like, "if you're not dating, then why does it say you're going out with him, hmmmm?" and then NiNi said "ooh, looks like SOMEONE'S a little jealous!" then Mark stopped doing anything on Facebook at all. Of course, I don't think he was actually jealous, because that would mean he likes me, and I'm sure he doesn't, but still! So I just acted normal with him, (which means not spamming his wall or anything) even though I felt bad because he had gotten rid of J.R for me (saved mah LIFE yo!) AND found Kitty's ring. But I didn't see why I should feel bad, because that would mean I like him or he likes me, and there's nothing like that between us. So then yesterday at Alex's piano recital, we were just hanging out and talking like normal, but then stupid Jack asked over Facebook to add me as his girlfriend, and I don't want to because Mark might get all distant again, and I am sorry, but I care more about Mark then Jack and it's fine because that would mean Mark likes me and he doesn't but WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!
I have no idea what to do. If Jade were online I could ask her, and she might be but I CAN"T GET ON FACEBOOK!!!! AAAAAAARRRRRRGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
Crud, my session ends in ten minutes. I better go. And then I'll ask if I can change my settings so I can go on Facebook. Yuppp! Byeas!
xoxoxo<3xoxoxo
Thursday, July 2, 2009
waaahh my onigiri didn't upload
Phhoeeee, I tried to upload this cute onigiri from Photobucket, but it didn't work. So I have to keep an un-cute profile picture, booo! Oh well.
Grr! That stupid Unflushed John is soooooooo pissing me off! Whenever I think about him, I get mad! So I try not to.
Actually, I don't. That was a lie.
But I'm Reviving Ophelia, so I'm wearing black and no hair accessories with a chain around my neck. (Actually, it's a pretty cute necklace! It's a chain, with a bell hanging from it, and a bow on top of that. I made it myself!) I want some fishnets too, but mine are really ripped up, and they're skin-colored anyway. I want some thigh high black fishnet socks... That would be sooooo cute! Maybe I can make some. Wait, no, I can't. They would break. Maybe I can make some thigh high regular socks before I go to chamber camp! Since I'm going to be away from the corrupting influence of my dear hometown, with no parents there to stop me, I can wear whatever i want. Crud, I could dress like a hooker and no one would be the wiser! I think I will. It will put some amusement into my daily life.
Sooo.... I'm off to make some thigh highs with garters! See ya!
xoxoxo~♥~
Grr! That stupid Unflushed John is soooooooo pissing me off! Whenever I think about him, I get mad! So I try not to.
Actually, I don't. That was a lie.
But I'm Reviving Ophelia, so I'm wearing black and no hair accessories with a chain around my neck. (Actually, it's a pretty cute necklace! It's a chain, with a bell hanging from it, and a bow on top of that. I made it myself!) I want some fishnets too, but mine are really ripped up, and they're skin-colored anyway. I want some thigh high black fishnet socks... That would be sooooo cute! Maybe I can make some. Wait, no, I can't. They would break. Maybe I can make some thigh high regular socks before I go to chamber camp! Since I'm going to be away from the corrupting influence of my dear hometown, with no parents there to stop me, I can wear whatever i want. Crud, I could dress like a hooker and no one would be the wiser! I think I will. It will put some amusement into my daily life.
Sooo.... I'm off to make some thigh highs with garters! See ya!
xoxoxo~♥~
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
pissed at a certain toilet-wad
But... I wanted to be called an effing whore...
Seriously! You can't trust people! ><
Jasmine's Newsfeed:
Thomas just arrived. He is definately going to audition for pre-college at Juilliard next year in May. Miss NY already...
Yesterday at 7:34pm · Comment · Like
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Grace 翁馨怡 at 7:52pm June 30
haha...
Alia at 8:07pm June 30
GOOD LUCK! hopefully you'll get in! but then your leaving CA???
Thomas at 8:10pm June 30
What justin? Why don't u audition?
Yep, gonna move to NY, seriously.
Alia at 8:11pm June 30
awww....what if you dont get in??? then you wont move hahah lol
Kate at 8:13pm June 30
I hope you go!!
James at 8:15pm June 30
Good luck. I'm not a fan of NY, but Juilliard is major. I'm sure you'll do fine - typical Asian-American prodigy!
Roseann at 8:20pm June 30
good luck.
Chelsea at 8:24pm June 30
pshhhhh curtis is wayyy better lol tell me about julliard when u get bak!!
Thomas at 9:16pm June 30
I would audition the year after again. What Chelsea?? Curtis is not better than Juilliard...
Justin at 9:18pm June 30
Plz move 2 NY
Thomas at 9:20pm June 30
oh I'll be glad to, cuz I won't see your face again... Dude save ur words. Don't click me.
Thomas at 9:23pm June 30
@ Kate - I hope so too! But there will be no more CYMO :(
Kate at 9:30pm June 30
Awww that's okay if you go to Juilliard I'll visit
Thomas at 9:43pm June 30
really? where are you going for college?
John at 10:07pm June 30
Justin, do you have anything better than "wow thomas......" to say to any of Thomas' statuses, or are you just that f***ing stupid???
(FYI Justin, just in case you don't understand what "f***ing" means, replace "***" with "uck")
Justin at 10:16pm June 30
wel john......nobody ever uses fyi's anymore...
Jasmine at 10:28pm June 30
@thomas i hope you get in! ^D^ but we'll miss you...
@john that's not very nice...
Millie at 7:46am July 1
does that mean you're gonna move to NY?? AWESOMENESS lol.. BEST OF LUCK! =]
Alia at 10:29am July 1
hahaah awww......john is sticking up for thomas how cute!
Thomas at 10:42am July 1
@ Justin - people STILL use FYI's. and.. FYI, are you f***ing stupid?
@ Jasmine - ... -_- i don't think you know how friendship works... "real" friends stick up for their friends. So.. be my guest and find a friend. xD
John at 6:17pm July 1
Interesting. Justin removed all of his comments... For such an egotistic, arrogant, and antagonistic little kid that he is, I (along with others) would believe that he could take a little criticism like this. I guess that I (along with those others) assumed incorrectly...
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JOHN YOU EGOTISTIC ARROGANT AND ANTAGONISTIC BUTTHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHO MADE YOU THE BOSS OF THOMAS' SOCIAL SCHEDULE????!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARE YOU F***ING STUPID? GO SUCK ONE, YOU CHAUVINISTIC PEA BRAINED DICKHEADED CRAPHOLED ANTISOCIAL PRICK!
Oh man. I just wanna slap that guy...
How DARE he talk to Justin like that? And is he gay or something? EEEEESH! What the eff is his BEFF?
...His beef is gonna be dead meat if he says anything like that to Justin ever again... I warn you, I have a killer sucker punch and I know how to use it too! Don't make me mad, John you plugger-of-the-john...
Pretty
Sometimes I like to go outside and watch the sun. I run down the sidewalk until I'm too out of breath to run any more. Sometimes then a group of men pulls up in a truck and stare. I don't like them staring, so I run away.They drive after me and yell things. The first one says Hey pretty girl how are you, but I ignore him and keep running until the second one says "Stop and say hi to us and be friendly. I look at them, stupid and scared, and then the third one throws some money at me and yells something, and then I turn around and run home.
A vignette I had to write for English. I'mma change it though, cause Mom is probably gonna read it. Eesh. What can I write about? It's supposed to be about my neighborhood and in the style of El Casa Sobre El Calle Del Mango. Ugh, why the eff do I have to do this? I hate making creative writing. I like writing stories, and making things up, but then people have to read it and tell you your plot is defective or whatever. It's so effing annoying! I'll just right something mundane and stupid. Ick.
Ok, here's what I came up with.
Responsible
No, I say, I don't want to go visit them after the funeral. I don't, I don't, I don't. And they think it's just because I'm shy, because I don't know the family well. But I'm the only one who knows the truth. Why he died. Why his family is so sad now. It's all my fault and that's why I can't go visit them and try to make them happier.
He was sick and old, and he always smelled like cough drops. But he wasn't mean. He always let us come over and pick his fruit for him and then take it home with us in paper bags. But I still avoided him, because I thought I might get sick too. And then one day he waves to me when I'm walking by myself and he says come over and pick some oranges if you want and I shake my head and say no, no, I don't want to, I need to go home. He turns away sadly and I think that's the end, but the next day I hear that he died. I can't believe it, because I know it's all my fault, so I don't go over to talk to the family anymore. My parents say too bad, and it's good he got to be at home at the end, but I don't say anything, because I'm the only one who knows what happened and I don't want them to be hurt the way his family is hurt. So I just seal the words inside my mouth and don't say anything at all.
Family Resemblance
Aren't you that little girl's sister? they ask. You look just like her. Then they nod and laugh as if they'd just found out something really clever. Like they'd just invented gravity or something. I nod and smile and keep talking but I know they're lying. I'm not that pretty and I don't look like anyone in my family. But they smile and nod. Yes, you look just like her. Just like her.
Pretty good, ey? Except the first one actually did happen and I felt horrible for a while. I still feel bad, actually, if you want the truth. Now his brother is living in that same house and I want to make amends but I don't know how. I say hi and stuff, but he's really creepy, so I try to avoid him and I know that one day I'm going to regret this, but I can't make myself go talk to him friendly like. Cause he's a creepy geezer! >< Well... I did leave a plate of cookies on his doorstep once, but I didn't tell him it was me, so it doesn't count.
UGH! I am such a LOSER! I disgust myself! Why can't I be more kind to everyone? Why do I have to be such a bitch?
AND BE SO EFFING FAT?????!!!! I gained 1.99 pounds this week. And my stomach sticks out like a water balloon. I can hardly stand to look at myself in the mirror unless I'm wearing something to disguise it, and even then it shows. I look like shit, and I can't do anything about it. I tried running today, but, if you read my first vignette, you can tell what happened. And, of course, I'd been reading that stupid psychology book on Understaning Ophelia or whatever, so I was all paranoid of potential stalkers and rapists. URGH!
But now I'm making it my ambition to Revive Ophelia in ten simple steps!
1. Be very officious to young children.
2. Be very insubordinate to adults (Mom and Dad in particular)
3. Be very paranoid of all guys (this one I might have trouble with...).
4. Work very hard at school.
6. Make as many friends as possible, prefferably ones that Mom and Dad disapprove of.
7. Do it. (I don't want to, though, so this may only be Ophelia's Nine Simple Steps)
8. Be very loud and obnoxious.
9. Don't listen to Prince, but listen to various other angry artists. (Evanescence will do)
10. And, last of all, with my special skill, break all the rules possible! Wear indecent clothes, lots of makeup, and heels! (Ouch!) Chew gum! Listen to emo heavy metal! Go outside to wander the neighborhood at night! Get a boyfriend! Keep secrets! Be a bitch! And DON'T EVER EAT A SINGLE THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Eeesh, now I have to frickin go do math. What the eff. How annoying.
And, on top of it all, THIS CREEPY CREEP WHO IS NOW MY FRIEND ON FB CAUSE I THOUGHT HE WAS SAFE AND MARK KNOWS HIM KEEPS SAYING I'M CUTE! ARRRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH!
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Seriously! You can't trust people! ><
Jasmine's Newsfeed:
Thomas just arrived. He is definately going to audition for pre-college at Juilliard next year in May. Miss NY already...
Yesterday at 7:34pm · Comment · Like
3 people like this.
Grace 翁馨怡 at 7:52pm June 30
haha...
Alia at 8:07pm June 30
GOOD LUCK! hopefully you'll get in! but then your leaving CA???
Thomas at 8:10pm June 30
What justin? Why don't u audition?
Yep, gonna move to NY, seriously.
Alia at 8:11pm June 30
awww....what if you dont get in??? then you wont move hahah lol
Kate at 8:13pm June 30
I hope you go!!
James at 8:15pm June 30
Good luck. I'm not a fan of NY, but Juilliard is major. I'm sure you'll do fine - typical Asian-American prodigy!
Roseann at 8:20pm June 30
good luck.
Chelsea at 8:24pm June 30
pshhhhh curtis is wayyy better lol tell me about julliard when u get bak!!
Thomas at 9:16pm June 30
I would audition the year after again. What Chelsea?? Curtis is not better than Juilliard...
Justin at 9:18pm June 30
Plz move 2 NY
Thomas at 9:20pm June 30
oh I'll be glad to, cuz I won't see your face again... Dude save ur words. Don't click me.
Thomas at 9:23pm June 30
@ Kate - I hope so too! But there will be no more CYMO :(
Kate at 9:30pm June 30
Awww that's okay if you go to Juilliard I'll visit
Thomas at 9:43pm June 30
really? where are you going for college?
John at 10:07pm June 30
Justin, do you have anything better than "wow thomas......" to say to any of Thomas' statuses, or are you just that f***ing stupid???
(FYI Justin, just in case you don't understand what "f***ing" means, replace "***" with "uck")
Justin at 10:16pm June 30
wel john......nobody ever uses fyi's anymore...
Jasmine at 10:28pm June 30
@thomas i hope you get in! ^D^ but we'll miss you...
@john that's not very nice...
Millie at 7:46am July 1
does that mean you're gonna move to NY?? AWESOMENESS lol.. BEST OF LUCK! =]
Alia at 10:29am July 1
hahaah awww......john is sticking up for thomas how cute!
Thomas at 10:42am July 1
@ Justin - people STILL use FYI's. and.. FYI, are you f***ing stupid?
@ Jasmine - ... -_- i don't think you know how friendship works... "real" friends stick up for their friends. So.. be my guest and find a friend. xD
John at 6:17pm July 1
Interesting. Justin removed all of his comments... For such an egotistic, arrogant, and antagonistic little kid that he is, I (along with others) would believe that he could take a little criticism like this. I guess that I (along with those others) assumed incorrectly...
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JOHN YOU EGOTISTIC ARROGANT AND ANTAGONISTIC BUTTHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHO MADE YOU THE BOSS OF THOMAS' SOCIAL SCHEDULE????!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARE YOU F***ING STUPID? GO SUCK ONE, YOU CHAUVINISTIC PEA BRAINED DICKHEADED CRAPHOLED ANTISOCIAL PRICK!
Oh man. I just wanna slap that guy...
How DARE he talk to Justin like that? And is he gay or something? EEEEESH! What the eff is his BEFF?
...His beef is gonna be dead meat if he says anything like that to Justin ever again... I warn you, I have a killer sucker punch and I know how to use it too! Don't make me mad, John you plugger-of-the-john...
Pretty
Sometimes I like to go outside and watch the sun. I run down the sidewalk until I'm too out of breath to run any more. Sometimes then a group of men pulls up in a truck and stare. I don't like them staring, so I run away.They drive after me and yell things. The first one says Hey pretty girl how are you, but I ignore him and keep running until the second one says "Stop and say hi to us and be friendly. I look at them, stupid and scared, and then the third one throws some money at me and yells something, and then I turn around and run home.
A vignette I had to write for English. I'mma change it though, cause Mom is probably gonna read it. Eesh. What can I write about? It's supposed to be about my neighborhood and in the style of El Casa Sobre El Calle Del Mango. Ugh, why the eff do I have to do this? I hate making creative writing. I like writing stories, and making things up, but then people have to read it and tell you your plot is defective or whatever. It's so effing annoying! I'll just right something mundane and stupid. Ick.
Ok, here's what I came up with.
Responsible
No, I say, I don't want to go visit them after the funeral. I don't, I don't, I don't. And they think it's just because I'm shy, because I don't know the family well. But I'm the only one who knows the truth. Why he died. Why his family is so sad now. It's all my fault and that's why I can't go visit them and try to make them happier.
He was sick and old, and he always smelled like cough drops. But he wasn't mean. He always let us come over and pick his fruit for him and then take it home with us in paper bags. But I still avoided him, because I thought I might get sick too. And then one day he waves to me when I'm walking by myself and he says come over and pick some oranges if you want and I shake my head and say no, no, I don't want to, I need to go home. He turns away sadly and I think that's the end, but the next day I hear that he died. I can't believe it, because I know it's all my fault, so I don't go over to talk to the family anymore. My parents say too bad, and it's good he got to be at home at the end, but I don't say anything, because I'm the only one who knows what happened and I don't want them to be hurt the way his family is hurt. So I just seal the words inside my mouth and don't say anything at all.
Family Resemblance
Aren't you that little girl's sister? they ask. You look just like her. Then they nod and laugh as if they'd just found out something really clever. Like they'd just invented gravity or something. I nod and smile and keep talking but I know they're lying. I'm not that pretty and I don't look like anyone in my family. But they smile and nod. Yes, you look just like her. Just like her.
Pretty good, ey? Except the first one actually did happen and I felt horrible for a while. I still feel bad, actually, if you want the truth. Now his brother is living in that same house and I want to make amends but I don't know how. I say hi and stuff, but he's really creepy, so I try to avoid him and I know that one day I'm going to regret this, but I can't make myself go talk to him friendly like. Cause he's a creepy geezer! >< Well... I did leave a plate of cookies on his doorstep once, but I didn't tell him it was me, so it doesn't count.
UGH! I am such a LOSER! I disgust myself! Why can't I be more kind to everyone? Why do I have to be such a bitch?
AND BE SO EFFING FAT?????!!!! I gained 1.99 pounds this week. And my stomach sticks out like a water balloon. I can hardly stand to look at myself in the mirror unless I'm wearing something to disguise it, and even then it shows. I look like shit, and I can't do anything about it. I tried running today, but, if you read my first vignette, you can tell what happened. And, of course, I'd been reading that stupid psychology book on Understaning Ophelia or whatever, so I was all paranoid of potential stalkers and rapists. URGH!
But now I'm making it my ambition to Revive Ophelia in ten simple steps!
1. Be very officious to young children.
2. Be very insubordinate to adults (Mom and Dad in particular)
3. Be very paranoid of all guys (this one I might have trouble with...).
4. Work very hard at school.
6. Make as many friends as possible, prefferably ones that Mom and Dad disapprove of.
7. Do it. (I don't want to, though, so this may only be Ophelia's Nine Simple Steps)
8. Be very loud and obnoxious.
9. Don't listen to Prince, but listen to various other angry artists. (Evanescence will do)
10. And, last of all, with my special skill, break all the rules possible! Wear indecent clothes, lots of makeup, and heels! (Ouch!) Chew gum! Listen to emo heavy metal! Go outside to wander the neighborhood at night! Get a boyfriend! Keep secrets! Be a bitch! And DON'T EVER EAT A SINGLE THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Eeesh, now I have to frickin go do math. What the eff. How annoying.
And, on top of it all, THIS CREEPY CREEP WHO IS NOW MY FRIEND ON FB CAUSE I THOUGHT HE WAS SAFE AND MARK KNOWS HIM KEEPS SAYING I'M CUTE! ARRRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH!
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