More sad

I'm so hungry and miserable and cranky and I miss Austin and I want to go home and why is the world such a cruel place ugh
I sound like such a brat, what's wrong with me?
No, okay, you know what, I have a lot of stuff to worry about, okay? Like, you know, I have a license to complain, and you bet your butt I'm going to, especially on here, since no one will ever know and all will be secretive and well. I'm so hungry! Why am I so hungry? I have no self control. I had coffee this morning before I went to class, and then when I came back to my dorm, I thought it might make it easier to walk around and open doors and things if I had sugar, so I had that little packet of cookies they gave me at one of those horrific orientations (there were like ten little coin-sized pieces in there though, wtf man, is this marketing or something?) and now I'm hungry again! It's 7:30, so it's about dinner time, but there are a lot of people outside, and anyway it's raining (which is really wonderful and amazing, actually), so I feel like I would look even more ridiculous, traipsing along like a poor little orphan waif all by myself. I had a meeting with my mentor group, and they gave me these two cookies, and I can't stop staring at them. Ugh, I really do have no self control. If I don't eat them tonight, I won't have to buy food tomorrow, and it will be a real money saver. What's wrong with me anyway? I know my meal schedule is really unhealthy, but usually I should be able to handle it! I wish food weren't so expensive. I'm determined not to cost my poor mom any more money than she's already spent on me, but I didn't bring much cash with me, and my bank doesn't have a branch here, so once the money I have with me runs out, I'll be stuck. I have a meal plan, but it's really confusing, and I think I can only use it once per day. Or does it tap into the 150 dollars I have on my Buck ID (such a punny name)? If so, that's pretty bad news for me, because I've been using it to buy stuff at Starbucks. I think they're different, though. I want to cancel my meal plan, actually, because I can't bring myself to go to the cafeterias, and it'll be wasted if I don't. What is the matter with me? I can't, just absolutely, flat-out can't eat in public by myself; I can only drink stuff (hence my liquid diet). So I can go to the market and buy prepared foods, but they're really expensive, and if I did that often, I would only be able to eat like every other day or something. Why do humans need food? This is terrible. The fabled freshman fifteen is such a lie. I haven't weighed myself since I've been here, but I feel like I've lost like five pounds just from this unhealthy life I've been leading. I want to be able to have a normal life though! I can't live like this forever, can I? I went to dinner with my roommate and the girls across the hall yesterday (and it was ruinously expensive, let me tell you). Maybe I can do it again. No, they left. Man! I'm going to live my life with no friends and I'll be lonely forever and die of sadness at age 30 and never get to be rich and happy! And all because I was a loser in college! Well, I mean, all my life, really, but now is where it is the most visibly acute. Oh no, what if I pass out or something? I don't think I will, though. I feel so dizzy and weak all the time though, it's really distracting. I wonder if it will interfere with my classes.
Oh hang on. My roommate's out, so if I went and got takeout something, I could come back here and eat it alone and no one would be the wiser! Okeydokey! Let's do this! Go Jasmine go!