But... I wanted to be called an effing whore...
Seriously! You can't trust people! ><
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Thomas just arrived. He is definately going to audition for pre-college at Juilliard next year in May. Miss NY already...
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Grace 翁馨怡 at 7:52pm June 30
haha...
Alia at 8:07pm June 30
GOOD LUCK! hopefully you'll get in! but then your leaving CA???
Thomas at 8:10pm June 30
What justin? Why don't u audition?
Yep, gonna move to NY, seriously.
Alia at 8:11pm June 30
awww....what if you dont get in??? then you wont move hahah lol
Kate at 8:13pm June 30
I hope you go!!
James at 8:15pm June 30
Good luck. I'm not a fan of NY, but Juilliard is major. I'm sure you'll do fine - typical Asian-American prodigy!
Roseann at 8:20pm June 30
good luck.
Chelsea at 8:24pm June 30
pshhhhh curtis is wayyy better lol tell me about julliard when u get bak!!
Thomas at 9:16pm June 30
I would audition the year after again. What Chelsea?? Curtis is not better than Juilliard...
Justin at 9:18pm June 30
Plz move 2 NY
Thomas at 9:20pm June 30
oh I'll be glad to, cuz I won't see your face again... Dude save ur words. Don't click me.
Thomas at 9:23pm June 30
@ Kate - I hope so too! But there will be no more CYMO :(
Kate at 9:30pm June 30
Awww that's okay if you go to Juilliard I'll visit
Thomas at 9:43pm June 30
really? where are you going for college?
John at 10:07pm June 30
Justin, do you have anything better than "wow thomas......" to say to any of Thomas' statuses, or are you just that f***ing stupid???
(FYI Justin, just in case you don't understand what "f***ing" means, replace "***" with "uck")
Justin at 10:16pm June 30
wel john......nobody ever uses fyi's anymore...
Jasmine at 10:28pm June 30
@thomas i hope you get in! ^D^ but we'll miss you...
@john that's not very nice...
Millie at 7:46am July 1
does that mean you're gonna move to NY?? AWESOMENESS lol.. BEST OF LUCK! =]
Alia at 10:29am July 1
hahaah awww......john is sticking up for thomas how cute!
Thomas at 10:42am July 1
@ Justin - people STILL use FYI's. and.. FYI, are you f***ing stupid?
@ Jasmine - ... -_- i don't think you know how friendship works... "real" friends stick up for their friends. So.. be my guest and find a friend. xD
John at 6:17pm July 1
Interesting. Justin removed all of his comments... For such an egotistic, arrogant, and antagonistic little kid that he is, I (along with others) would believe that he could take a little criticism like this. I guess that I (along with those others) assumed incorrectly...
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JOHN YOU EGOTISTIC ARROGANT AND ANTAGONISTIC BUTTHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHO MADE YOU THE BOSS OF THOMAS' SOCIAL SCHEDULE????!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARE YOU F***ING STUPID? GO SUCK ONE, YOU CHAUVINISTIC PEA BRAINED DICKHEADED CRAPHOLED ANTISOCIAL PRICK!
Oh man. I just wanna slap that guy...
How DARE he talk to Justin like that? And is he gay or something? EEEEESH! What the eff is his BEFF?
...His beef is gonna be dead meat if he says anything like that to Justin ever again... I warn you, I have a killer sucker punch and I know how to use it too! Don't make me mad, John you plugger-of-the-john...
Pretty
Sometimes I like to go outside and watch the sun. I run down the sidewalk until I'm too out of breath to run any more. Sometimes then a group of men pulls up in a truck and stare. I don't like them staring, so I run away.They drive after me and yell things. The first one says Hey pretty girl how are you, but I ignore him and keep running until the second one says "Stop and say hi to us and be friendly. I look at them, stupid and scared, and then the third one throws some money at me and yells something, and then I turn around and run home.
A vignette I had to write for English. I'mma change it though, cause Mom is probably gonna read it. Eesh. What can I write about? It's supposed to be about my neighborhood and in the style of El Casa Sobre El Calle Del Mango. Ugh, why the eff do I have to do this? I hate making creative writing. I like writing stories, and making things up, but then people have to read it and tell you your plot is defective or whatever. It's so effing annoying! I'll just right something mundane and stupid. Ick.
Ok, here's what I came up with.
Responsible
No, I say, I don't want to go visit them after the funeral. I don't, I don't, I don't. And they think it's just because I'm shy, because I don't know the family well. But I'm the only one who knows the truth. Why he died. Why his family is so sad now. It's all my fault and that's why I can't go visit them and try to make them happier.
He was sick and old, and he always smelled like cough drops. But he wasn't mean. He always let us come over and pick his fruit for him and then take it home with us in paper bags. But I still avoided him, because I thought I might get sick too. And then one day he waves to me when I'm walking by myself and he says come over and pick some oranges if you want and I shake my head and say no, no, I don't want to, I need to go home. He turns away sadly and I think that's the end, but the next day I hear that he died. I can't believe it, because I know it's all my fault, so I don't go over to talk to the family anymore. My parents say too bad, and it's good he got to be at home at the end, but I don't say anything, because I'm the only one who knows what happened and I don't want them to be hurt the way his family is hurt. So I just seal the words inside my mouth and don't say anything at all.
Family Resemblance
Aren't you that little girl's sister? they ask. You look just like her. Then they nod and laugh as if they'd just found out something really clever. Like they'd just invented gravity or something. I nod and smile and keep talking but I know they're lying. I'm not that pretty and I don't look like anyone in my family. But they smile and nod. Yes, you look just like her. Just like her.
Pretty good, ey? Except the first one actually did happen and I felt horrible for a while. I still feel bad, actually, if you want the truth. Now his brother is living in that same house and I want to make amends but I don't know how. I say hi and stuff, but he's really creepy, so I try to avoid him and I know that one day I'm going to regret this, but I can't make myself go talk to him friendly like. Cause he's a creepy geezer! >< Well... I did leave a plate of cookies on his doorstep once, but I didn't tell him it was me, so it doesn't count.
UGH! I am such a LOSER! I disgust myself! Why can't I be more kind to everyone? Why do I have to be such a bitch?
AND BE SO EFFING FAT?????!!!! I gained 1.99 pounds this week. And my stomach sticks out like a water balloon. I can hardly stand to look at myself in the mirror unless I'm wearing something to disguise it, and even then it shows. I look like shit, and I can't do anything about it. I tried running today, but, if you read my first vignette, you can tell what happened. And, of course, I'd been reading that stupid psychology book on Understaning Ophelia or whatever, so I was all paranoid of potential stalkers and rapists. URGH!
But now I'm making it my ambition to Revive Ophelia in ten simple steps!
1. Be very officious to young children.
2. Be very insubordinate to adults (Mom and Dad in particular)
3. Be very paranoid of all guys (this one I might have trouble with...).
4. Work very hard at school.
6. Make as many friends as possible, prefferably ones that Mom and Dad disapprove of.
7. Do it. (I don't want to, though, so this may only be Ophelia's Nine Simple Steps)
8. Be very loud and obnoxious.
9. Don't listen to Prince, but listen to various other angry artists. (Evanescence will do)
10. And, last of all, with my special skill, break all the rules possible! Wear indecent clothes, lots of makeup, and heels! (Ouch!) Chew gum! Listen to emo heavy metal! Go outside to wander the neighborhood at night! Get a boyfriend! Keep secrets! Be a bitch! And DON'T EVER EAT A SINGLE THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Eeesh, now I have to frickin go do math. What the eff. How annoying.
And, on top of it all, THIS CREEPY CREEP WHO IS NOW MY FRIEND ON FB CAUSE I THOUGHT HE WAS SAFE AND MARK KNOWS HIM KEEPS SAYING I'M CUTE! ARRRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH!
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