it was a very odd dream too.

Ughhhhhhhhhh..... my fifth consecutive dream about Mark.
I really gotta get a new best guy friend.
Or something....
But anyway. Why does he hate me so effing much? Why? WHHYYYYYYYYYYY??!!!!! URGH! I curse him to trip in front of his crush! Cha! Take that! *waves hands around in a vague attempt to direct bad luck his way*
But anyways.... I guess I'm never prolly g'nuh talk to him anymore... WHICH IS JACK'S FAULT!!!! AAAARRRGHHH! EFF YOU, JACK! It's all his fault. Everything is.
Actually, no I'm wrong. Everything is my fault. If I hadn't been so durned stupid as to talk to Jack in the first place, then Mark wouldn't be mad at me now. SO THERE!
But... I'm not as stupid as to bust my butt trying to apologize to either of them (not that Jack even wants an apology) because I'm so forgiving or anything. (Crud, that's really not the right word, but I can't think of the right one!) Weak, maybe. Or accepting. Or allowing? Nooooooooo, none of those! Crud! ><
Woah, Lacrymosa is really a good song!
Anyway. What was I saying? Oh yeah. I was complaining about Mr. Jack-Off and his influence on Mark. Did I say in my last post that he was sort of distant? Well, that was the understatement of the century. Now, not only is he somewhat distant, he's somewhat treating me as if I don't exist at all. I walk into sabbath school, see him, wave and smile. He sees me, of course, but he just stares, then looks away and starts talking quite obviously to the girl next to him, who I just happen to know. (She's really nice. Pretty, too. And blond. And much taller than me. As are most of the girls he now is ignoring me in favor of, except not all of them are blond.) Well, really! I went off and sat down. Then, Jade appeared and got me and Kitty to sit over where she was, which just happened to be next to Mark and his buddies. Then, afterwards, when I didn't make any contact with him at all, she got this knowing look on her face and asked, loud enough for people clear out in Rome to hear, "WHAT HAPPENED, JAS? WHAT DID YOU DO? DID YOU HAVE A FIGHT?" In vain did I try to put her off. She wouldn't be quiet until I told her all about Jack-Off-Jack (as opposed to Jack-Off-Jill) Then, she resumed the knowing look and said, still quite loudly, "HE'S JEALOUS!" "DEFINITELY!" agreed Kitty. Then they nodded together, like a pair of bobbleheads. "W-what are you all'uns talking 'bout?" I gasped, so shocked that I affected a Southren accent. "What she said!" said Kitty. "He's jealous!" reiterated Jade. "No way," I said, still in shock. "That's the way a guy is!" she continued. "He's sulking and trying to rebound by talking to all his female friends because he can't get the girl he wants!" "Which is you," Kitty put in quickly, just to clarify things to the maximum. "I'm sure I don't know what you're talking ab-ouffff!" I cut myself off, as Kitty shoved a lemon and poppy seed muffin into my mouth. "Shut up and listen, baka!" she hissed, sounding so entirely evil that I did. "For some reason or another, that numbskull likes you! So when he thought that you were going out with Him Who's Name Shall Not Be Mentioned (as she has dubbed Jack) he decided that he'd make you jealous, or maybe just forget about you, so now he's flirting with all the girls he knows!" "Exactly!" agreed Jade. "See, she's three years younger than you, and she already knows this stuff?" "Om nom nom," said I, still chewing on my muffin. "You look like a pasty chipmunk," said Kitty. I air-slapped her. "Sisterly love..." giggled Jade. "But anyway," she continued in a business like tone. "What we need to do is hook you two up. Right, Kitty?" Kitty nodded, with the most enthusiasm I'd seen for a week. "You can't do that! Can you?" I asked, finally free of my muffin. "Oh yes, we can!" they chorused, with seriously frightening expressions. "What are you going to do?" I asked. "You'll just have to see..." they giggled. Eventually, they did give me a hint, they said that they'd ask him why he's ignoring me. I asked them not to, but they said they wanted to, and just trust them. Very difficult to do...
Oh well. Why am I babbling like this? He's just a guy. So there.
Oh well.... I guess I probably shouldn't have told them that I feel a little jealous after all. Now both of them are perfectly convinced that we're the best future couple ever. Ugh. Well, it's true! I can't help it! Hmmph! ><
Well... I guess there's nothing I can do.
I JUST WISH I COULD FREAKING STOP DREAMING ABOUT HIM!!!!

xoxoxo~&hearts~