I've been trying to deny this for a really long time. I never thought I could be part of the ace spectrum, like no way, I'm totally allosexual, totally alloromantic. Right? I'm ashamed to say it, but I was so convinced that I was allo that I disrespected demisexuality as an identity, because the definition fitted me to a T, and since I obviously didn't fit under the ace umbrella, that couldn't be a real thing. What a problematic person I am. Okay! But now I'm learning to unlearn my problematic world views, and I'm getting to know myself as a person too. Which is so exciting! Who knows what I'll find out next?
So you see, it's okay that I'm demisexual. It's part of who I am! It's what makes up me! I still have so much to figure out, and that's okay. It's a journey, and I'm only on the first part yet.
Oh wow okay but I'm having a lot more trouble with thinking that I might be aromantic. Because I might be. Like 80% probability that I am. But I don't want to be, gosh I really don't! And I have been in love before! So maybe it's not completely like that? I have this feeling that it is, though. And that's pretty weird, to be honest. I admire people so much who can embrace everything without feeling weird about it! There's so much for me to argue against. Hmm. But man, like I said, this is a journey, and I'm going to make it. I'ma figure this out. Yes I will. Everything will be okay.
<<optime! demi me!>>
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