Jiwon is leaving us today, and it's so sad! She's going back to Korea for the rest of this year, and then coming back in fall quarter of 2015. It's really tragic! We're all going to miss her, and I wish she could stay, but then again, this means she'll graduate with me and Irene, so that's cool, and I'm glad she gets to go see her family. But I wish she would stay.

I'm sick right now. It's to the point that I can't talk, and the best I can do is sort of croak quietly and pathetically from my bed. I feel bad for being so lazy, but part of me is also pleased at this turn of events, because it gives me an excuse to not get up, not go out, and not eat. If I had an unlimited phone battery, I would be all set! As it is though, I had to finally arise and plug in my phone, because it was dying, and now I'm cold and sad, and Sadie is playing Christmas music, which should help, but really doesn't. Also, now I can't watch Netflix or anything, and that's something that would improve the day slightly. Cesar is being unnervingly nice to me, and he wants to visit tomorrow, which probably won't happen, him being who he is, but it's all slightly unsettling. Really, I just want to go home, and not have to deal with any of this. I would make a cup of tea, and settle down with a book or maybe a musical, and forget about people and cold weather and communicable diseases for as long as no one disturbed me. Although to be fair, someone would probably be just as likely to interfere at home as here. So that's all a bit of a pipe dream. But it's something to look forward to anyway, because what have we in this life if not hope?

This is a completely miserable finals week, may I just say. Even if I weren't sick and on my period, I would still have had two finals and a paper due on Monday, and then absolutely nothing until Friday. This is the worst. I hate having nothing to do! Can you believe I have two more days like this? But maybe worse, because Sadie will be done with her first final by then, and will want to party with her annoying friends, and then I'll feel like the requisite awkward person of the floor (which I'm really not, like I'm at UCLA for goodness sakes, I haven't seen this many dorks in one place since I went to Anime Expo, but anyway). And then it will just be downhill from there! Maybe they will invite me, and then I'll awkwardly refuse, and feel even more awkward, and just, ugh. Why does everything have to be so awkward? It's only with Sadie though. Maybe we're just not meant to get along. Although apparently, she's an ENTP, which shouldn't be too bad with my INTP, but I suppose one never knows. Even Meyers-Briggs can fail sometimes. 

My stomach is making a lot of noise right now, and it's fairly embarrassing, but I don't want to go eat. It's really cold outside, and I don't want to go to the dining hall, and there's really nothing that I feel like eating, so I'm basically just stuck with a noisome esophagus here. Ugh. Why does everything have to be so annoying? I feel gross and irritated and uncomfortable and bored, and worst of all, my hair looks super nasty at the moment. And I can't talk! This is not a happy day for me.

Oh, bless Jiwon! She just brought back a box of strawberry macarons from the cafe, and gave some to me and Sadie. Now I've eaten food, so I don't have to feel guilty, and also, that was a truly delicious pastry. Maybe I should get some more on my own later. Although no, sugar is supposed to be detrimental for sickness, isn't it?