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Ugh, I'm sick. I woke up reeeeeally late today, and now I have a sore throat so I can't sing anything. It's driving me nuts!! I can't stand not being able to talk or sing! Ok, I guess I can talk, but that's not enough! With my luck, I'll probably get to stay home alone today too!
I wonder if my words got accepted on Urbad dick-tionary yet! I'mma go check.
YES! All of them made it on!
Woot!
Go me!
Yesterday I was recording myself singing various songs, and when I got to Love Story, I realized I sound a lot like Taylor Swift! It's so amazing! I love my voice now! Although I still can't sing anything. Go figure.
(AGH! Did I just say "go figure"??!!!! I don't even have the slightest idea what the heck it means!)
Oh yeah! Now I remember! I was gonna tell you about TiTi!
So, I'm in the hospital on Valentine's day (which sounds like a bad country song), and Jade and Crystal and me are all talking. (Kitty didn't come, so I didn't even have to feel guilty!) Then, Jade mentions her party, and I say, all innocent sweetness (which I have become very good at!) "So, is TiTi gonna be there?" Jade bursts out laughing and does an air-smack. "Shhhhh-! You're so mean, Jas! I told Janelle not to bring her!" Crystal becomes curious (as any sane individual would do). "Who's TiTi?" she asks. "A very lovely person!" I inform her, opening my eyes wide and fluttering my eyelashes. "Shhh-! Jas, you-!" Jade exclaims. "TiTi and Jas didn't really get along, when they first met," she explains to Crystal. "Ah, I see..." says Crystal. Feeling the need to elaborate, Jade continues. "Imagine the worst insult you've ever gotten as a homeschooler, and-" she mumbles something, presumably to delicate for my ears. "ah, I see." says Crystal, sounding pitying. "Eh, she's not that bad," I say, quickly, to protect my honor. "Yes it was!" cries Jade, anxious to worry everyone in a ten mile radius. "She called her a prep!" "Wow," said Crystal. "And a loser," continues Jade. "Seriously...." I begin. Just then, the ladie's inform us that we need to stop soliloquizing and play As The Deer (or some equivelant). After we finish, Jade says, "The only reason TiTi might need to come is that she's staying with her mom this weekend and if we didn't bring her she'd be all alone." I feel like crying, and, judging from the expression on her face, so does Crystal. "That's so sad! Nobody should have to always hang out by themselves! (even though I like to)! Bring her!" I cry, my opinion flip flopping dramatically. "Uh, ok..." says Jade, unnerved by this Fruits Basket worthy speechetta. After we play another song or two, Jade feels the need to further enlighten me to her cause. "TiTi's mom said she only had TiTi because Janelle used to talk to herself when she was little, and they were worried." she explains. If I felt like crying before, that was nothing compared to now. "That is so sad!" sob Crystal and and me in tandem, trying not to be too loud. "Mos def! Bring her!" I cry. "Uh, ok, I'll tell Janelle," says Jade, looking both nonplussed and triumphant. Is she really that devious? Does she now know that I'm so sentimental that I can't stand people feeling sad or unwanted? Did she really want to bring TiTi, so she did a Special Attack: Make Jasmine Cry? Ugh. I try to belive the best about people, but sometimes.....
Eh. Who cares. She's my best friend. I should stop talking behind her back. I mean, what if she reads this?
In the car, Mom was like, "So, who's this TiTi girl, Jas? From what Jade was saying, I gather you don't really get along..." "Oh, no, she's really nice!" I answer, waving my arms around vaguely. "We just.... didn't get properly introduced! Like, we didn't.... er... ya know! Yup!" Unfortunately, I am usually a terrible liar. Mom looked skeptical, but didn't say anything else. She doesn't think a lot of Jade, though. I mean, I've never heard her say so, and of course, she's always very polite, but I know she doesn't. Maybe if Jade didn't try to change everyone so hard....
Oh well. That is what life is. C'est la vie.
Indeed.
I loooooooove the new song I wrote! It's so pretty! I also wuv the piano part I made up! It sounds real! And the song is really fun to sing! I'm so proud! I call it Frozen. Isn't that a GREAT name? I mean, like, a TOTALLY good name? Like, the best you've ever heard! At least it's better than, say, Mmm Papi. Right? Yay!
Kitty decided that she didn't want to go to orchestra today, because she felt sick, so naturally Dad blamed this on me. "Look, young lady!" he thundered quietly, so Kitty wouldn't hear, "You've been saying you have a sore throat, and all, and now Kitty is saying she's sick and doesn't want to go to orchestra! So go and try to convince her she should actually go!" (ARGH! Get the heck off my HEAD you friggin annoying lovebird!) "FINE you jerk!" I told him, and stomped off to try and change Kitty's mind. Did it work? No, it did not. So now, not only do I have to stay home with Sungmin, who is preoccupied with watching a very long Tom And Jerry cartoon, I have to stay home with Monkey Zit Two who is currently peeking over my shoulder to make sure I don't write anything subversive. (which is why I called her a monkey zit.)
Now, I also don't get to wash my hair, cook dinner, or watch Bleach. Lovely. Even the small pleasures of life have been stripped from me! Although, maybe a hot shower would help my cold. I could try. After I'm done, I guess I will. I'll take a echinacea too.
Crud, but I was gonna make curry! Not that I probably can, but I wanted to try! Mom got an Indian cookbook, so I wanted to try it! I love curry. (Japanese curry too)
YES! I got my voice back!!!!!!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
What was I saying? Oh yeah, I wanted to cook dinner, since I sometimes do like cooking. And I wanted to watch more Bleach! There's nothing more entertaining than excess bloodshed, right? Although I did watch kind of a lot last week, so maybe I shouldn't today. Dunno. But I wish Kitty would go to orchestra.
Oh yeah, speaking of orchestra, the Samuels's now hate me. I know I said it before, but I know 'tis true. Every rehearsal, since the concert, they have called attention to me, in an embarassing way, right in front of everyone. Seriously! What is the puppy gonna think? He'll think I'm a slutty ditz who doesn't do anything right! And I'm NOT a frickin DITZ! Seriously! Why does everyone think I am?!!!! (and I ain't no prep, either. Bitch.)
Crud, I guess this means I have to stop badmouthing TiTi. I mean, it's not her fault she's so screwed up. It's her parents fault. I mean, who tells their kid something like that? It's so wrong. No wonder she's such a skank. It's not her fault. Maybe when I get to high school, I can hang out with her and change her life! Woo! Go me!
....
Maybe not.
I felt an icy death glare from Jade, Janelle,Kitty, and TiTi when I wrote that.
Well, whatever. Maybe we'll become best friends! I hope so.... I can try! Right! As long as I apologize for being rude to her when we first met! She's probably a nice person at heart, she'll be glad to make another friend! Right! I'm so happy! I can't wait! Although I'm so dead scared of high school I can hardly breathe (which is not an enviable situation, as I may soon pass out). What the heck am I gonna do? I'm not gonna fit in. I'm a weird person. I mean, I have an online diary that I talk to as if it were a person! Everyone's gonna hate me! And I'm gonna fail all my classes, and I'm gonna be a freak for life! Actually, what I'm scared of, is that right now, everyone thinks, "Oh, she'd be cute and popular if she went to high school, and she'd get good grades too," but I'm afraid that when I actually do go and not get good grades, and not be popular, everyone's gonna look down on me and I'll be embarassed again because I'm not as good as everyone thought. It's gonna suck so bad I think I can't go, but one time, I realized I eventually will have to go to college, so
AGH! FRIGGIN LOVEBIRDS FRIGGIN CRAPPED ON ME! I"MMA GO TAKE A SHOWER! GROSS!