It’s been a long time! I think I need to journal more. Then again, there’s not much to journal about. Life has been pretty flat since we’re still in lockdown, and I haven’t been getting much done. I’m shamefully behind on schoolwork, and I still haven’t found a job. Oh, but we did find a place to live for when our current lease expires in June! Or rather, Emily found it. I didn’t do much. It’s a really good deal, though, and is right in town! How exciting— we’re going to be living together, just us two. I hope it’ll be okay. What if we flounder without the padding of roommates? But no, I don’t think we will. I just need to make sure to keep up to date on cleaning. I think that’s my worst fault as a roommate. So if I do that, and I do the cooking and all that, it should be fine. I’m so excited to decorate! Our current house is pretty drab, so it’ll be absolutely wonderful to make our new place look like home 💖 I just wish I had all my cute decorations. They’re all in California. But maybe they were too cutesy and childish? I’m going to be a professional adult 😤 Maybe I will decorate in gray! Actually, I like gray a lot, so I would be fine with that. Brown, not so much. Like, it’s so boring. It has its place in the spectrum, though.

I just realized My Chemical Romance must have had to postpone their tour this year because of the pandemic. If so, does that mean I could get tickets for next year? Oh gosh! It would be such a dream! I don’t know what I would do! Cry, probably. I would think they would come to London, at least. I know it would be horrendously expensive, but I would hopefully have a job by then. And I would save! I would give up whiskey and fancy cheese! And I wouldn’t even buy a new outfit, even though I would really want to! It would truly be a dream come true. You know, I think I owe it to young baby me. It’s therapy, right? Re-parenting or whatever. Hell yeah.

I wonder what I should make for dinner tonight. We’re a bit tight on money since we have to pay two sets of rent this month (for the house, and the new place).

Okay I’m back! It’s 2:47 AM! I was reading a YA fiction book. It was fantasy, too. Goodness, what has become of me? But I was gripped! Except one of the characters is a really racist white man and his whole “redemption” arc is that he’s horny for the girl he’s racist against, and somehow that makes everything okay 🙄 also, let’s not forget that he didn’t shoot the leader of their gang when he had a chance to even though it would have sabotaged their entire heist and gotten everyone killed! What a man! Fortunately, he dies later, so I have that to look forward to. But it’s a good series on the whole, and I’m looking forward to finishing the second book tomorrow.

It’s gotten very hot all of a sudden. I don’t like it. It’s totally inscrutable to me that some people (like Emily) prefer the heat to the cold. Since I’m always too warm anyway and I barely feel the cold unless I’m sick, I really don’t like it when the temperature is above ~80. One would think that I would have it made coming to England, but sadly, global warming has made fools of us all :( Why don’t European people have air conditioning yet? Like, come on. Embrace hedonism. Keep me from melting. You know?

Tomorrow, I need to do some schoolwork. Like, desperately. I’m behind in the worst way. The problem is that I get panic sweats every time I so much as think about checking my university email. Still, I think I can do it. I have to at some point, so I might as well do it now. Gotta rip that bandaid off and get right back to it. Even though I have not a single clue what I’m doing. My final paper for my prosody class was some grade-A bullshit. I cited Native Tongues again, I mean like come on! I also used a lot of examples from American dialects hoping that my professor won’t fact-check. The perks of being an international student! Still, I probably can’t hope for more than 50% and likely it will be lower than that. Here, that’s passing, though. C’s get degrees, vive l’académie anglaise!